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WackyPaky222NINE
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Location: Chicago, Illinois, United States
Interests: shiny things?, gadgets, the violin, any kind of sport or game, fixing things, exploring, and photography
Expertise: The subtle art of procrastination, being totally random, allowing people to underestimate me, napping, making chocolate milkshakes, and pulling rabbits out of hats
Occupation: Student
Industry: Medical
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Member Since:
11/15/2004
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| As if from nowhere, I have an odd sense of uncertainty that has been creeping around in my head all day. Not sure what its related to, where it came from or what I could do to shake it, but its here. It’s a very unfamiliar feeling and is just this ambiguous sense of not being sure about something…don’t know what the something is. | | |
| So its coming down to the ultimate decision time...and I'm completely freaked out! There are still some some questions that are yet to be answered to my satisfaction and some issues left, but its the most important decision in my life. Its a decision unlike all my other decisions which can not be quantified and my attempts to quantify it have caused me a great deal of turmoil and confusion.
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| So it looks like the roller coaster has taken another turn...this time for the better. It started off very high, and then slowly seemed like it was going to come crashing down. I felt like I was losing interest and that she didn't have what I was looking for. So after almost ending it on a couple occasions I decided that the least I could do was talk to her about my hesitation. If nothing else she deserved to know why I was going to end it.
I had thought through exactly how I was going to break the news...thought about the whole "its not you, it me" or the "we want different things" argument. In the end I didnt beat around the bush and just asked her what was on my mind and to my surprise I got a very sensible response to my questions...totally plausible! So I decided that I might as well talk to her some more and then make the big decision the next time I see her in person and see how I feel. Surprisingly, things have gotten quite good. The issues that needed to be addressed have been addressed...well as much as they can be addressed at this point, which is acceptable to me. We have been talking for hours and hours everyday, and FINALLY I feel comfortable with her. I feel like I can talk to her without reservation. I feel like we are both making a true effort and I'm looking forward to talking to her everynight, rather then dreading it. Actually I really look forward to it and I'm looking forward to seeing her again. Rather than looking at the next meeting as the time I decide its over, I'm seeing it as the time that I finally decide its settled...i'm settling down! God only knows what the next meeting will bring, and I will leave it to him!
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| First thing's first, I does what I do.
But everything I am, she's my improve
I'm already boss, I'm already fly.
But if I'm a star, she is the sky
And when I feel like I'm on top
She give me reason to not stop
And though I'm hot
Together we burn it up.
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And she treats me like a Don, watches for the hit.
Checks where I go, even watches who I'm with.
The right when I'm wrong, so I never slip.
Show me how to move, that's why I never trip.
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| Well it seems like I like her and she likes me...
Now the question is if she is the one who I want to share the rest of my life with. Is she the one where I stop looking forever... So far things are going well, but only time will tell if she really is the one. In the mean time I have gotten plans moving on picking out the ride and next investment project.
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